I am getting afraid of clicking onto the news online. After four plane crashes, and few disasters happened around Israel and now another incident in Taiwan. Feeling rather emotional. Life. What will happen next, we will never know. But what is wrong here? What is God telling us through these accidents. What is happening now? I have been thinking.
Have you ever thought of doing something before it is too late? Like just do it wen, you don't know if you will have tomorrow. Everyday we live as though we will wake up tomorrow. We are sleeping soundly everyday worrying only what to eat or wear tomorrow. But we thought, what could we do? We can't possibly fly over to Taiwan and help the victims. We can't keep in touch with the victims' family and give them words of comfort. We said we were in great sorrow and felt for them, pray for them. Do we really know how they feel? I doubt myself. We are vulnerable. Life is. I do not know why do God let this happened. Why do they suffer. I cannot understand the big plan God is pursuing.
To think about being too late. I had a urge to express all my feelings and do what i think i wanted to the other day. But i held back. I am afraid of regrets. But I am afraid of making mistakes more. I had a bad day. Not a bad day per se, but I was feeling a bit tired. Tired of why do I always denying and rejecting the holy spirit working through me. There were times when i knew exactly what i should do, and what should be taken care of. Just why did i choose to ignore. I was so angry at myself. Feeling very stupid when i know things would be different if i was decisive enough. I deserved all these. I am not worthy, i thought to myself.
Why do God treat me so well. That you see, His plans are always extraordinary. He did the best thing when we least expected. When i thought i was being punished, for not listening to Him, He showed mercy and gave me another chance. I was evermore grateful for having such a gracious Lord. Though the time is near, decisions have to be made, but i want to wait. And i know i need to wait...
A month passed by, it is August already. So fast! I am starting to feel a bit sad that all these are going to end very soon. oh no, I think i am starting to miss the life here already! :( Cherishing and appreciating every single thing that happened here.
我的喜乐泉源. Love love all of them to bits. We thought that the numbers of smts students coming in were really few. But God has amazing plan. The loveliest people ever. Each and everyone of them are perfectly fit into the group. Everyone plays a role and completed us all. No less no more. Just perfect. :)
I was freaked out when i was asked to play a mix match with Rev Tie against Rev Ting. But it was my first and also the greatest ping pong tournament ever. Rev Tie is my "Papa" in my family group, being all nice and encouraging but yet has a bit of cold humor in him. Encouraged me whenever the ball went off and said it's okay, just a bit more! You can do this! Good ball! Woots! Cheers were all over the place, very uplifting!
Many events are coming up as you can see it's been a while since i last update any stuff on the net. I enjoy every exposure in every churches, fellowship and evangelism. Especially during evangelism, I am very happy i am gaining these new experiences. Things are getting a bit packed but all is well. God is good.
