crazy

痛苦 痛苦! 太痛苦了!!

My stress level is exceeding! Like 349%, so much work to do so little time! Time in uni is insanely fast. Cant breath, suffocated. 9 assignments at one time is crazy man, you know, CRAZY! Too much negative thoughts and workload in hand i feel like crying. Let's just not care about being perfect anymore, i just wanna finish my work. I want ma's chicken soup and i feel like sleeping 12 hours.

凡劳苦重担的人，可以到我这里来，我就使你们得安息。 -太11:28

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anyone?

突然 好希望有个人 可以摸摸我的头 对我说，妏，不哭不哭 主耶稣爱你 我也爱你.

Honestly, ive been feeling really weary lately. I don know if it's because of the assignments flooding in or the dull life ive been repeating for a month! a month! by now. ( I hardly can imagine how my 4 years gonna be in this little island.) I really really wish to go to the beach, and eat an icecream. Not thinking what is in my mind and the world's happening. I just want to feel the sweetness in my mouth and being glad that God saved us all. Do anyone know how i feel? Is there anybody out there, like freaking know what i meant.?

Life is just not like that. Nobody is going to be happy every moment. Life's tough. and im craving for mcdonalds. *depression.

rainbow

世上的花花草草 永远都比不上 天上的彩虹 和云彩

每一朵云彩，都象征 代表着上帝的良善与恩典，玟妏 记住了

Look up into the sky, and you'll realised there are so much more, way beyond what you have on this tiny little earth up there.

A friend reminded me, at the end of the day, you will realised all the things that we are doing now, or are trying to pursue now will just disappear into thin air. 'Poof!' and there's only one person that will stand in front of you with an open arm, waiting for you all along, to give you warmth from this cold world, to bring you eternal happiness. 

So true, look inside your heart and you'll see a hero lies in you. A hero armed with God's strength to carry on and i am glad. so glad that i know, you will win the war. 

God's grace never ends. Mom and dad are so loving. People i met are so caring. What more do i want. 

sadness

Everything is so disappointing. I thought you understand, i thought i could get some attention, i thought i could complain, i thought i could be weak in front of you, i thought so. I feel pity, i needed supports and i needed comforts. What did i do wrong? For being weak? For telling you i needed you? For complaining my rough days? You know you can always tell me your feelings and i did show my care to you. Now i could only hide my thoughts and die. The end.

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dear you

To dear you,

ive read through the love book you gave me once again, and now it is my turn, to really wanna tell you something.

God let us met in church, and amazingly God let us come together and share His love. Having you with me was a wonderful thing that had ever happened to me. Walking with me, telling me about God and you, i feel love. A truly blessing to know such an awesome guy exists. i cant promise i will remember every single moment of us, but i can promise i wont forget the name, Lemuel Zhang Yi Le, how he have turned me closer to God.

Zhang Yi Le's virtue:
1. Love God, trust God.
2. Love family (you wont forget to always buy good food to share with them)
3. Love me (at times, i do feel like a princess :)
4. Sacrifices alot for me, time, money and heart. (dedicated in every present, very diligent)
5. Serious in us. (a man hardly cry, and when you do, you must be in real pain)
6. Pursuing happiness all the time. eventho he's facing alot of troubles in life.
7. Love to spend quality time with loved ones.
8. The smile and laugh that i would never forget. Very attractive.
9. Focus when he's doing something.
10. Show a lot of consideration and give a lot of care to what he thinks is important.
11. Has a goal in life, pursuing it with God. Willing to let it all to God.
12. The look that will always make me feel shy and no one can resists! (dont look at other girls that way!!!)
13. Very cute. (for some lame jokes :P but still, managed to make both of us laugh)
14. Very loving. He wont stop showing his care and love. always super loving.
15. Rational. (Firm with God's principles, Like a man.)
16. As long as his loved one is happy, he is happy and satisfied.
17. The best spiritual friend you can have.
18. Would never force you to do things you are not willing to do.
19. Willing to share God's words, his feelings and his thoughts.
20. Know how to take care of others and himself.
21. Do only what is right and avoid what is wrong.
22. Always think of his family and the loved ones.
23. Appreciate every single God's blessings on himself, aware that He is so blessed.
24. Never stop learning, regardless study or God.
25. Would stay away from things that might hurt his loved ones' feelings.
26. Pursuing strong spiritual life. (Will always train and prepare himself for the better)
27. Being humble and never forget he can be better and better.
28. More to discover.......

Wow, aint you the best my dear? :P never forget, you will be always in here, <3 the heart. eventhough we are apart. never forget, the love comes from God, never dies. Jesus loves you, So do i. :)

Sincerely, wen.

wonders

信是未曾看见 依然仰望十架，信是完全交托 深知主已掌权

我靠着那加给我力量的主，凡是都能做.

USH!!! another day went through with God's strength. Amen! ive been throught ALOT for these few days, eventhough it is just a few days, but ive been through spiritually and mentally fights. thank God, He always managed to tell me, wen, I am with you, cast your worries on Me, and I love you. and wow, that feeling was so blissful and amazing.

but tell you what, orientation suck! gosh, it reminded me back of my national service's life. waking up early in the morning like 5, 6, sleeping late at 1, 2? what's worse? walking! i have been praying and know this will be my biggest fear and i cant believe how ive walked through those hills and stairs and the SUN! having a little rest in between the lunches and dinners was exhausting as well. like a 45 mins rest? that is torturing! and there's one day, i thought i almost died when i walked around 40 mins to come back to college alone. :(

i know i know it's only for a week. but well! IT IS TIRING. haha, and thanks to those who hear me complain like every single second and moment. to ma, pa and gor, to lovely friends, im tired but im alright. God loves me and He sent so many angels, you, you and you to fight for me, to stay strong with me. and dearest you, i know you will always be there and thank you. With God, anything is possible and i have faith, this is just the beginning of the wonders that He wanted to give me.

afraid

"For the Lord your God is the one who goes with you to fight for you against your enemies to give you victory.” 
(Deuteronomy 20:4)

i was afraid, really afraid. the fear within me was so so overwhelming. when i listened to pa and ma's voices over the phone, worrying me so much and ask me to really take care of myself, to call home whenever i need them. and dearest you as well, to keep asking me to stay strong and believe me i can do this. i just cannot stop myself from crying over and over again. i have never felt these way before. God, i have never felt this lost before, i was afraid, i'm sorry. 

dearest you, thank you so much. i really did felt better. i opened up the bible, listening to worship songs, think only Him. amazingly and knowingly, i felt peace. a sudden change in my heart. i can hear God says, don worry my child, i am with you. dont be afraid, you are never alone. He never fails, people. He always brought victory.

sorting out my luggages and baggages, finding its place in every corner of this room. trying to make it feel home. pa's little pillow, ma's bedsheets and little turtle, Lele. Lele is so cute. i cant believe he is that clever to actually climbed out of his little bear's house and running around my desk! but NO! dont ever do that again! Little stuff that i brought awesomely make me feel a little, a little like home.

thank You Lord, who am i, for every of Your words, Your care, Your love. i will stay strong. for You dear God. I must, to give the great glory to You. I love You, Jesus.