Maturity

When i do not know what to do, what to say and which to decide, I flustered. I was in a total confusion. I was in the state of being weak. I needed hope. I needed maturity. Spiritual maturity.

I needed to get away with all the childish act and naive thoughts. I got to tell you that, i need a break from it. I need you to control your emotions before you talk. It is when we can sit down and talk about everything, properly. Honor each other, relate to and think for each other. Let us see what God sees, feel what God feels and think positively. I wish we could pray for everything, take things slowly, see properly what God wants us to do. Be it the ending is not what we always wanted, I want to commit all to God. Put Him in priority and believe in His will. I wish we could pray every single time together after we finished a discussion. I wish we always put God in the picture and believe He will make a way. Maturity is what we needed in a godly relationship. 

When we put God first, all other things will fall into their proper place. 

Matt 6:33 But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

Keeper

Believing miracles that God would do in our everyday lives and having the hope for tomorrow. What more could we ask for. Be strong and faithful, look beyond the world, for we are prepared for God's kingdom. Guard our heart and walk with God. And remember, whenever i miss you, i'll pray for you. Always, i'll keep you in my heart.

在这一切的酸甜苦辣 喜怒悲欢 

只渴望因着信而更坚韧 更达观 更有盼望. 爱 真的可以很美.

So dear to me

He said, the one thing he looked forward to, was to see her smile on his birthday. So he bought her flowers which she always nagged him with and treated her like a princess. She said, she wanted him to feel special and memorable on his birthday. So she too, made him a surprise by inviting all his friends over together celebrating with his family when he thought the day has ended. That was how he wanted her to be happy and she wanted him to be happy.

There, there, happiness overload. It was such a sweet time. Being together, and watching you receiving blessings from family and friends was a meaningful moment. Then, we talked about dreams and future. What's your dream?, I asked. How you wanted your life to be in the future? Some people wanted to live in a big city and drive good cars. Some people wanted to help the sick and serve in the hospital and some people wanted to have a family and kids. It was weird. I didnt know mine. Not anymore. I once wanted to go overseas and live a different life. I once wanted to take up pilot and fly. I now think about my family when i dream, my calling when i dream, and dearest you when i dream. I remember i asked him a few times these questions. He didnt need to say much, only these, "My dream includes you. Wherever i'll be, i wanted to be with you."

1 Peter 4:8 Above all, love each other deeply, because love covers over a multitude of sins.

Love never fails

Review

长过 也短过
圈过 也直过

肥过 也瘦过

白过 也黑过

丑过 也美过

好过 也坏过

2014 请问你 想怎么度过？

想啊想　就为着去年和今年　祷告了　

感恩　欣慰　醒悟　然后　立志

脑海里就浮现　真诚　这两个字　

好吧　它，就是我今年的主题　

每当我事奉的时候　要真诚

每当我待人的时候　要真诚

每当我祷告的时候　要真诚

每当我难过的时候　要真诚

即便有多么不愉快的事情　我都好想拥有颗最真诚的心

不把任何事都想得太复杂　好好　

可以不用去理会那可怕又听不见恶毒的心思　好好

可以真实的经历上帝的恩典和无私的爱  好好

所以 记住了!　把你的主题 挂在每一天所遇到的事情上　

对神对人 都献出最真诚的心灵 

你呢？想想一个属于你自己的主题吧 

让后再把它牢记在心底 在任何的人事物 以你的主题来度过你的2014.

新年蒙恩！

Matt 22:37, 79 Jesus replied，Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind. And the second that is, Love your neighbour as yourself

December

2013 is coming to an end and so, i asked myself, is 2013 a good year? The answer i had was.. not really. I cannot explain why i do not have a great feeling towards this year, but i guess the only reason why is merely because i have an ungrateful heart. Oh dear wen, why?!

I know, i should have been more thankful. Feeling rather upset and dissatisfy, there's a voice keep telling me to stop all the studying and urge me to spent some quiet quality time with myself.. with God. After i listened to a few songs, read the bible, i then went off wandering about things that ive did recently. Guess what, I had the worst Christmas ever. How so? I was too caught up with serving. I had too much to do. I sang for the church choir, I danced for the christmas dance and I acted as the shepherd. For that, i changed my attire completely for 4 times! I couldnt indulged myself faithfully in praise and worship nor listened completely to pastor's preaching as i was too too busy with preparing for the next show. God, on that very special day, You came to me Yourself to teach me this valuable lesson. The one thing that i do not want to miss out is You and yet, what have i done. I was lost. But thank God You found me. You made me stop. You made all of us stop. To stop just performing but to offer ourselves to you. Completely. Only then, You are pleased. Only then, You accept us. Thank You for still being with us and showed us Your grace when we were lost. Thank You for being such a sovereign God. We all learned, until forever and always.

 I still thank God for all of them. I am very happy we learned and grow. Together. We wanted to shine for Him. As we love each other because God first loved us.

 At least, ironwoman on this Christmas would still like to say Love You! :*

Two days after, i had my 21st birthday! WOOTS! On the contrary to Christmas, i had a great birthday! Everyone was being so so so so so so LOVING! 

Daddy before that have been calling me and said wanted to come penang and help me celebrate. But after all, he still couldnt make it. He was being so loving to urge me to go out and celebrate. Mummy too, calling me 宝贝 and said the sweetest thing ever! :') 超级无敌感动的啦啦啦. 

Being alone, away from home on this day was miserable. But! God didnt let me down! He sent so many angels to be around me and cheer me up. 

Dearest Lemuel made the most wonderful confession video ever and Lemuel's dad sent the most encouraging text messages ever! Very very sweet. 

Lovely girl friends stayed up late, went all the way out from campus just to come and surprise me with cake and birthday presents on 12am. 

Thank you sweethearts, Wendy, Carol, Jac, and Ah Choon woke up early just to bring me to breakfast. Thank you Choon for giving me another surprise out my door knob, and Carol for the amazing handcrafts.
Thank you wanlong and eeping for spending their time despite exams with me for dinner. Cheese tarts from dearest hui en and zu en! ♥

Calls from Bali! Della! mwahs! Calls from Sabah and Miri. Thank you!

Birthday songs from Carynne and Ahbi Wong! 

Hundreds of texts from MGC, great friends and even acquaintances. 

Truly, each and every blessings meant so much. Be it isnt a genuine and sincere blessing. I was touched. Sorry if i didnt manage to reply all of it but I read all of it! I still appreciate each and every of it alot alot. Nothing could be better than all these. :')

 It doesnt have to be big. It doesnt have to be loud. It doesnt have to be many. All i need is a sincere heart and a genuine blessing. :) Thank you for being such a great friends.

长大咯, 感谢上帝一路的看顾和保守. 让我能在神的慈爱里成长. 感谢祂不断的教导和塑造 指引我人生目标 调教我对祂的忠心. 让我更认识这世界. 因你 我能活出我自己 我得着自由 我找到了那永恒的爱. 父啊, 但愿, 我能在你的国度里成为你的精兵 让我继续的装备我自己 成为合神你心意的女儿. 奉主耶稣基督名所求. Amen.

ps. and so, i think i had a good year albeit all the shortcomings. :)

Blessed Christmas Eve

John 3:16 For God so loved the world He gave His only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.

As a christian, we are so familiar to this verse. But not everyone of us do know the meaning behind. God love us so much that He become man so that we can experience genuine love. He come not to condemn but to save. He wants us to experience the love of God, to truly accept the love and to make a changes in our life away from sin. Isn't this an amazing love romance story?

What is sin? We sin when we do not obey God. Agree? The moment sin entered into our world is when Adam and Eve first sin when they do not listen to God. They did not do what God tells them to do, which is to not eat the fruit that God do not let. There, they sin. And it makes me think of the world today. The sin that the world created. All because of disobedient to the word of God. Gay, Lesbian, Bisexual, Transexual, that they called it true love and demand for a rights to love. But ya know, the fact is we hardly get true love from human. Because human sin in whatever way in this world now. And it is super scary of how the world have become today when we do not obey God. 

I somehow believe in fairy tale's story that it all ends with the message that true love is the most powerful magic in the world. Familiar? True love kiss that break all the curse in those magical land and so forth. I might be influenced by the movie Frozen that ive watched recently but it is so true. There is no fear in love. 1 John 4:18 As long as there's love, 'true love', everything in this world can be casts out. And the true love im mentioning here is the love of God. The love that gave us hope and faith. Love that brings a family harmony, a couple patch up, a beggar with food, a crippled with help, unity and peace among the countries as well as the happiness around over the world.

In Christ, we are forgiven, for the love of God in this Christmas changes our life through the birth of Jesus Christ, the mighty Savior, the Messiah. God is the reason why we want to walk towards brightness and become better and better. It doesnt mean that we do not fail ever again, but it means He gave us everlasting peace with Him, knowing that Immanuel, He will be with us through hard times. And the greatest of them all, is to have a purpose in life. Knowing the love of God gives us a purpose in life, to love because God first loved us. To serve because God saved us.

This is how blessed we are. We know the beginning and we know the end. Only then, we can celebrate a great silent night and wonderful christmas! Woots! Happy Christmas! :*

喜欢

想念 你温柔的声音 大大的双手 温暖的拥抱

亲爱的 多么希望 此刻 你能在这里 

We're apart by thousands kilometres, approximately 5 hours of flight. Not far, but Miri seems like at the end of the world this time. I couldnt go back home. I felt really sad, knowing that you are not going to be with me for this coming Christmas, birthday, and new year. I have to admit it's really disappointing! Few days ago, i was still putting up hope that we might meet each other at least for a few days. But it seems, the condition now doesnt allow us to. With the all the christmas event that's ongoing here, air ticket flying back home which cost alot more expensive than going abroad, and final exams that are drawing nearer and nearer. We just couldnt do anything. :/

I love seeing pictures of those people flying back home and have their sweet time together with their loved ones. It is so heartwarming. Ya know, having the chance to cuddle together, to exchange presents, and to celebrate this festive together is truly a blessing. Appreciate it, it's the best thing in life. Nothing could be better than being together.

Dear ah,
我好想继续这样喜欢你下去
好想祈祷上帝继续保佑我们　祝福我们
好想这一切开始是你 以后也是你
好想回忆里有你 未来也都是你
你说好吗？　;)