Rejoice

我无法 不能 不懂 如何 开心. 我，不.开.心. 救我，救命.

what do i want. i want to feel nothing but happiness. i want to lie down in green pastures under the bright blue sky. i want to go to the beach and caressed by the sea breeze. i want to watch and look at a full moon with millions of stars above my head. i want to think nothing but God. i want to cuddle in His arms. i want to go home and not think of life.

what do i need to learn. i need to learn how to love people. i need to learn be humble. i need to learn how to be obedient. i need to learn to fully, sincerely surrender. i need to learn how to pray. i need to learn to see God. i need to learn to be happy.

half a month has passed. we are all preparing for christmas. celebrating the season of love, the birth of our saviour, Jesus Christ and preparing for Christ. i wanna do something for christmas this year. i wanna make a difference. i wanna do something for God. 

Dear God, use me. In Jesus' name i pray. Amen. 

'Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice.' Philippians 4:4