Thursday, May 22, 2014

Detour

While i was sitting in the car, looking out from the window, i saw a girl standing at the bus stop alone, drinking beverage and staring blankly ahead. Then, i saw a group of girls, laughing pretty hard together and one even smacked her friend's shoulder because they were too excited. I look ahead. Everything feels bland at that moment. Everyone 'seems' to live their life according to their own way. So here i ask myself a question, do i live my life my way?

Often, i want to say things that i want and i want to do things that i like. I wish to tell her my problems and not being judged. Or I wish to tell him that i miss him and not being cheesy. I want to leave everything and travel abroad. I want to have a career that i'm in love with. I want to involve only in God's ministry. I keep running to pursue things that i thought i want. Nonetheless, at times, it is not up to us. Life's full of choices. It's scary that you might take the wrong one and you can't find a U-turn. You can only keep heading and try to figure out if there's another path to head back to the right track.

And then, bump! Detour! there comes knocking at the door sending food at the right time, caring words, chats and blessed gifts all around to tell me to stop and look around! I almost thought it was my birthday! God knew what exactly do i need, He knew that i need to slow down my pace instead of keep fighting. All of your kind acts are my motivation to be stronger. There will be times to weep, and there will be times to laugh! Thank you for pushing me further! You all are a bunch of blessings sent by God to me. This is so heartwarming and uplifting!






小天使们啊,你们太甜,我快招架不住了! 感动死我了,爱死你们了! <3

Tuesday, May 13, 2014

Time like this

There's always a time like this. When you started to think, is this too much to handle? I've been working a lot in church, doing a lot of ministry work. Not to forget i have few assignments due this week and the next. But there's always people telling me, wen, God would be please if you serve Him! Of course, with a heart focus only on God Himself. At time like this, i always try to figure things out myself, praying that i could have a little more faith in God that He provides. At time like this, a little angel would appear out of nowhere and reminded me that you are not alone. And at time like this, i could see perfectly how His grace works in me.

When i thought i was tired and no one understands, there's someone else working harder than i am, doing more things than i am. I am actually happy to know that we're in this together. Though we know that we will be tired and sometimes worries, but i am sure we will experience God's grace along the way! I cant predict what lies ahead of me. I don know where God wants to put me in. But i have a direction, which is towards Him. You know, especially when you're a free bird now, you have nothing to lose anymore. But don lose hope. Cause that's what keep pushing me through.

Just recently i am so grateful. I had discipleship and pastor told me things i cannot forget until now. She said, do you know when is the time when you need to tell your friends about God? It is when they share things with you and talk to you about their worries. My roommate currently are facing a lot of difficulties. She came to me and cried. Pastor's words kept swirling in my mind and i was struggling to find words. After she shared, i took the initiative and told her about God. We then prayed together for her. Even though she did not accept God the moment when i asked her if she's willing to accept Jesus Christ as her Savior, I was touched. Ever since then, whenever she's weary, she would talk to me. I don know how God is working on this, on her, but God is teaching me. Step by step, let me glorify your name dear God. :) Amen.



Saturday, May 10, 2014

Ready?

Oh hi, i've been through a lot but i thank God i still survived. There are so much to tell, so much to say, but let's just keep it between me and God.

I am here to say, life is so much more than just getting a relationship, married and have babies. No doubts, i still long to have all that, if God's willing. But i am now finding myself, finding God. Good friends have never been so close and so sincere. I've found great things in life and i'm going to pursue as what God wants me to. Everyday, i'm experiencing God Himself, and each day i am alive again. Some of the great moments that i would wanna share is i have a dream now. i am no longer dependent on whoever to live my day and there's so much more to learn and room for improvement. I am grateful i am living through each day knowing today, God is holding me. When i look at the bigger picture, other little things really doesn't seem to be matter anymore. I am not ready now, to settle down, but i am ever ready to discover more. 

So dear God, if it's meant to be, bring me to it. If it's not, please do take it away from me.