plans

'For i know the plans I have for you,' says the Lord. 'They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.'

days are rough recently. but nah, i have God and my family. my dad was really cute. Yesterday he came to me and showed me two manggas he planted himself. he was amused by the size of the two ripe manggas where one big and the other one super small. he asked me to take a pictures of 'em. seeing his laughs with those wrinkles in his face, saying 'it's baby mangga ive planted!' i laughed out loud as well.

the feelings of anxiety about life, heartache and emptiness about life had trapped me in trauma. a snag in life can be so vulnerable. im feeling scared, of what? i don know. the feelings of me never getting out of it, or the feelings thing would never be the same.

My God's word is all im asking for now, i keep on searching the answer in His words. and yeah, His words is so honorable, so faithful and so real. i realised the thing is, im not ready to leave. i think i don want to somehow. but just in a few days, ive realised so many things, ive seen so many flaws, im changing inside, rapidly. that you might not even recognized me when you saw me.

dear God, im willing to get out of it. teach me how. fill me with Your words and only You. have faith and watch God's plan unfold. i believe and know it will be far more beautiful than i think it will be. Thank You for all the gracious comfort.

These may not be the version of your perfect day, but have faith that He has a bigger plans for you in due time.