Hi poo

Hi there,

Am i asking too much? Am i doing too much? Is doing too much good? There are billions of questions regarding what am i suppose to do running through my head for like months. Sometimes i want to appreciate and grab every opportunities that i encounter, but sometimes i just want to take a break and let go.

Being nothing is miserable. To know that you can actually do something but you cant do it because you're not suppose to is devastating. God, i pray that you can direct my ways, to the correct path. What am i suppose to say, what moves should i take?

I am not counting what i have done. I am worried what ive done that shouldnt be done. For i want to put myself in other people's shoe. Feeling for them, encourage them and spare their thoughts. Lord, may i not focus on the earth, may i look upon you, Lord and may i do Your will.

Thank you for bearing with me.

words

thank you, thank you all for every single letters and alphabets that pierced right through my heart. those written words and sentences that form one complete emotional essay, as though voicing out for that little heart of mine, whispering in my ears reminding me how ignorant is this little girl.

grace and blessings never left her. God so love this little girl, that she is keep growing. mold by His own hand, becoming stronger and having more courage and faith. turning into a young lady that wanted to live for Him, push herself and run towards Him no matter what's the obstacle is in front of that long track, searching the light and breathing the air He provides when she's about to suffocate and drenched into a lost world.

thank You, for being there all the time. without You, she wouldnt be able to live.

i thank God and am grateful, because He didnt forget to wake me up this morning. and you too. :)

stay with me

she knows, someone, somebody, anybody out there do understand.
will you, stay with her?
and i'll make sure, promise, she will try her best to bear with you,
hold on tight to you and never let go.
cause she knows you will strengthen her, keep her uphold and provide her needs.
i know, you, will never fail her.
correct?
you love her, and she loves you too
so please, dear you, stay with her.
as she wants to continue to live for You, Jesus Christ.

别动

第一站 充满期待的幸福，温暖

第二站 拥抱爱， 满满的喜乐

第三站 诉说心里的喜悦

第四站 小小的冲突

第五站 内心的挣扎 以及坦诚

第六站 ...

会是怎样的呢? 

有时候, 更希望 可以好好的呆着, 别动, 就不痛.

我不怪谁，

只怪自己 冲着上帝要回自己的心

原谅我，我的自私，我的一意孤行

我和你一样， 期待更好的自己. 

human's heart

ive stopped writing. i know.

im going downhill. being back home is great. awesome. being afraid to people, watching out who is really who, guessing people's darkest mind is not. and when this happened, i will hide. avoid those people, places and situation that might cause chaos. i am keep deciding everything according to my own will. as long as im good, im happy. with the only bunch that i love.

nope, this is not good. im of no difference with those selfish people. thinking that, everyone is being okay with me. truth is, i am the only one that loves being together, hanging those blissful faces, and telling those happy tales.

how you look, what to do, what to say, what to feel, all these matters. to define who the heck are you. from other people. how pathetic. where's the true and sincere feelings and thoughts?

Jeremiah 17:9 The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately sick;who can understand it?

the answer goes to the most awesome God.

wen, He knows.

Rejoice

我无法 不能 不懂 如何 开心. 我，不.开.心. 救我，救命.

what do i want. i want to feel nothing but happiness. i want to lie down in green pastures under the bright blue sky. i want to go to the beach and caressed by the sea breeze. i want to watch and look at a full moon with millions of stars above my head. i want to think nothing but God. i want to cuddle in His arms. i want to go home and not think of life.

what do i need to learn. i need to learn how to love people. i need to learn be humble. i need to learn how to be obedient. i need to learn to fully, sincerely surrender. i need to learn how to pray. i need to learn to see God. i need to learn to be happy.

half a month has passed. we are all preparing for christmas. celebrating the season of love, the birth of our saviour, Jesus Christ and preparing for Christ. i wanna do something for christmas this year. i wanna make a difference. i wanna do something for God. 

Dear God, use me. In Jesus' name i pray. Amen. 

'Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice.' Philippians 4:4

month of love!

mannn, it is DECEMBER already! can't wait! can't wait and I JUST CAN'T WAIT! to celebrate Christmas! to celebrate my birthday! to eat more good food! to finish my first semester! and to go back home! what's the best thing other than all these!?

Everyone loves December! especially this little girl here loves December freaking much. i'll never let anything to ruin my lovely month. (grrrr, never!) hah, right. anyway, ive been super relaxing these few weeks after ive passed up one of my toughest project. another yet to come but all is well till now. :)

thinking back of what ive accomplised in this year, i do had an amazing blessed year. when i chose to look at the good rather than the bad, i found out i do live an awesome life. thanks to lovely heavenly Father for all the blessings.

1. I went to three countries and a few states in a year.
2. I cut my hair short.
3. I helped my mom at her shop for more than a month.
4. I rear a pet turtle.
5. I learned how to cook.
6. I worked for around two months and quit cause i don like it.
7. I bought cool smartphone and laptop.
8. I got into the best uni in Msia.
9. I always have money inside my purse.
10. I am living healthily and growing stronger.
11. and more and more... uncountable blessings. ^^

Let bygones be bygones, and look upon the amazing things that is happening around you. Simply be grateful and happy cause you are alive, living under God's wings. and of course, because i just got one of the buy one free one subway voucher! awesome! :P